What is family? Your family runs through your veins, but what is unique to you and which traits did you inherit from your parents and/or ancestors? How does your upbringing influence you and your life? Can you break free? How does family constellation work?
I see my father as a tall, outspoken, charismatic and dominant man.
Throughout my childhood I felt my dad always had a strong influence on the choices I made. I was a real daddy’s girl. I wanted to please him. And I had the impression he could control people around him with his mind. Whenever my brother or I disappointed him, we would know for sure. And then the silent treatment would start, which could take like, forever. Part of me thinks this is the reason I have always pushed myself hard.
And it makes me question what are my thoughts and what are his?
There is also the brother…
Is our relationship based on the family, inherited blood band? The same that runs through my father? Is it his personality or the result of his upbringing?
My mom lost her mother when she was quite young. From that moment on, she needed a strong man by her side, to be able to live life. She was my dad’s muse. They loved each other very much. It worked for them.
When my mom passed away, I received the family albums from my dad. And looking at these photos to create the slideshow for her funeral, I started to feel the real, raw memories.
The true stories unfolded and I have to face them. I cannot run away anymore.